Am I exactly in the same spot that I was before.
Frustrated with myself
Frustrated with those around me
Wanting to be loved and befriended...
Wanting to sometimes disappear.... start all over again... somewhere new
Somewhere where I do not have to fake a smile over the pain I feel inside, the hurt I have felt by the unknowing actions (or inaction) of others...
...
stressed
...
irritable
....
an easy prey for the advesary with my all too sensitive and insecure heart.
He will try to paralyze me with the burdens of a sad, lonely heart.
But I'm pushing through... I'm serving in my calling as best I can. I am serving the school. I am struggling to serve my family... I think we just need to take some naps and we will be able to manage (oh august come soon!)
-----
Mountains of stuff to do before me
-study
-take exam(s)
-clean apartment
-declutter front room
-move Ashley's stuff
-touch up kitchen
-do kitchen floor
-bathroom + floor
-GIRLS ROOM - a whole nother beast
-go through clothes
-go through toys
-pack stuff to ship/send home
-My room - yikes
-Deal with INSURANCE JUNK!
-go to bank see if we are approved for any amount of loan
-tire swap?
-find new vehicle
-girls school stuff
-Senior research
No comments:
Post a Comment